it truly is summer

The sun is shining, and I'm stuck behind the loneliest desk on campus. Pullman takes on such a different aura over the summer. The family aspect is much more noticeable as kids are riding their bikes around, there are BBQs on front lawns and baseball games are being announced over the loud speaker. Honestly, I prefer summer Pullman to school Pullman. However, I would much rather be at home, where I could actually take part in all this summer fun. While it's nice to notice all that is going on, it makes me lonely to realize that I am missing out on it. I know, I know, I could take part in it all if I wanted to, but that's a hard obstacle to overcome when you're lonely, when you don't know anybody. I guess this summer is helping me to realize the importance of community. Any community. I miss my family community, my church community, even my work community. This is becoming pretty whiney. Sorry. Just telling it how it is.

OH MY GOSH!

Okay, okay... This is for Peter who supposedly checks my blog EVERY DAY, which I doubt. I'm writing. That's right, Laura's adding a new entry.

See, the thing is, I just don't know what the heck to write about! It seems that my other blogging friends write about what's been going on in their lives, but once again, I just don't see how anyone would find the daily events of my life even remotely interesting... I'll take a stab at it...

I rearranged my bedroom. I had been thinking about for quite some time, but was set back by the orientation of my heater. However, after Peter came over and anounced that he had rearranged his own bedroom, I took the mental challenge upon myself and decided to put the bed OVER the heater! Lo and behold (I can't help but think of John Schultz when I say that...) it is soooo wonderful! It's like I have my own electric blanket or something. By the time I turn my heat down before bed, the overhang of the blankets is just warm enough that I don't have to wait for my body heat (what little I have) to warm up my bed! My bed is my new haven! So, I attribute the discovery of my new favorite place to Peter Schatzer, who rearranged his room first.

Yikes, this entry became a salute of sorts to Peter...

Okay, I'm stopping now. The thought of writing anything more about myself seems somewhat boring, and heaven knows that if I write about Peter anymore, I might get into trouble... :P Not to mention, I'm at work! Shhh, don't tell.

upside down

Okay, so after reading jessica's, brandon's, and peter's blogs, i started thinking. who's gonna be reading mine anyways? well, probably jessica, brandon, and peter. next thought, okay, i don't care what i write about anymore. but see, i just can't help but think, why would they care? do i care? so... the next thought was: maybe i'll just use this to help sort out my thoughts. besides, i don't have all that good of a memory when it comes to things like daily activities. so i guess i won't ditch the blog after all.

let's see, this is going to be the real first post i suppose. well, honestly i've had a lot on my mind lately. most of it has to do with god. see, i've been realizing lately how difficult it is for me to find joy in everything in my life. it is so easy for me to complain about... well, practically everything. the complaints have ranged from "i hate homework, i don't want to do it" to things like "i don't want to be here anymore, i want to go home!" while nothing may be wrong with these statements when they are meant half-heartedly, i have come to find that they deeply impact my attitude... and my attitude deeply impacts my performance and my devotion. devotion not only to school work, but to relationships with others, including god, as well.

so god put me here. i am here for a purpose. not only that, but so many other people around the world don't even get the oppourtunity to go to school, let alone a four year college! shouldn't i be grateful? shouldn't i rejoice in the fact that i get to have homework, or that this learning experience (there are tons of them at college) is going to make me a better person in the future? the answer is yes. yes, i should be so grateful that i am here, that i will end up with a degree, that it takes hard work and dedication to move on, that i have a challenge to face everyday, that i have a warm bed, that i have an awesome roommate and great friends, that i have a computer to help with my work and communication, that i have food prepared for me everyday (and that food is so easy to complain about). wow, this is awesome! i'm so lucky!

okay but not so fast. yes, there are drawbacks. the interesting part about those, however, is that they will somehow help me. they might even help me in ways i will never know about. for instance, one drawback is that i'm separated from my younger brother, whom i love dearly. i want to be there to pick him up from school and watch tv with him, sit next to him at dinner, etc etc... okay, let's think about the ways that being away from him could be healthy... thinking... thinking... okay: in order to communicate with him, i have to put forth effort. this shows him that i care. and i see how he cares when i receive a simple call from him, or even an email. i know that he is thinking about me, or missing me. so this 'drawback' to being at college is strengthening my relationship with my bro. and that might be a stretch, but hey, it works.

well, i think what i've learned from sorting all this out on a page is that i need to work on my attitude toward... well... everything. i need to put forth some effort to try and find an upside to all the things that i complain about. it may take some time, and heaven knows it will take hard work. so if ya'll don't mind helping me out, i'd sure appreciate it. i don't want to be a complainer anymore.

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Well I still haven't decided how I'm going to use this here page... I don't really think I want it to be a 'spill my guts on the internet' page, however, I don't want to just talk about the events of my day either. Hmmm, any suggestions? When I figure it out, then maybe there will be a real post. But until then, have a good time ya'll.

Tulips and Friends

What could be any better than a teeny-tiny dorm room full of fresh tulips and good friends? I'm not quite sure. Well, Peter just set up my 'blog' for me and I'm feelin around trying to figure out how it all works. So far, it seems pretty simple. But we had quite a time picking out colors. We tried everything from sicko taco bell style, to 'soothing' pepto bismol colors. Surprisingly, these color choices happened while my back was turned! Kudos to you Peter!

Well, I guess I will write more later, when I'm used to sharing my life with both my computer and the general public... hmm, that'll take a while to get used to. Peter is currently trying out his vocals and line dancing skills to the likes of Mandy Moore and "Candy," while Brandon is teaching Jess how to use her blog. This is great. And I'm so tired. So I guess I'll be going.

hi!

hello everyone,

taking up space,

this is Peter

The First Post!

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